Witnessed a quarrel between 2 young boys around... Primary 3? 4? just a few days ago. The fight simply started with the 1 of the guys playing the nitendo DS that belonged to the other guy without asking for permission. After which, one of them got angry, pushed the other guy's bicycle and walked off. Seeing this, an adult followed the boy out as he just kept on walking. To where? I have no idea.
Really makes me wonder. Primary school. It seems such a long way back then. But hey, its not. Its only... 5 years ago? Things haven't changed that much, it seems. They would probably make up and be friends again in a few days' time. Who knows? They might even have 'patched up' even as I am typing this.
Noone can force you to do what you don't want to. Noone will. Each and everyone of us have the freedom to make that choice. And each and everyone of us have to take up responsibility for that choice. I have chosen, to just follow the Lord. He has plans for me. I believe.
Very thankful for my religion (I know I've said this many times). I can imagine how I am like without God. A totally opposite me. A temper many times worse. If it wasn't for his love, I would be a hot-headed rebellious teenager. I do feel like rebelling at times. The stubborness and unwillingness to change. Yet, He is the only one who can change that.
When you think that noone understands, you'll be surprised to find out that He does. He loves you and me. No matter how you are, no matter who you are.
Lord, I wanna come before you smiling, not crying. I needed Jesus @ | 11:57 PM
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Its really nice to see my CCA mates responding enthu-ly to my sms! Just that simple few smses can really make my day
I needed Jesus @ | 9:14 PM
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
How to smile? Press the = key and hold shift while pressing 0.
I needed Jesus @ | 9:15 PM
Do I look like a murderer o.O Cos the sec 1s said I looked like 1! hahahaha. Hmmmm, maybe that's one aspect to consider XD
4th week of lessons already... Time is still zooming past. Sometimes, I really wonder what I'm doing, watching life go past like that. But at other times, all I can ask is, what else can I do? Every step requires energy.
Really, sometimes its really not good to get yourself involved into too many things. This's where you apply "ignorance is bliss". Walking down this path of life, with patches of darkness. Yet, what is this compared to so many out there? I see the victims of the Haiti earthquake struggling so hard for their lives. Yet, the blessed me is yearning to give up.
Give up - this 2 words is indeed very alluring. No matter what though, I still know that deep deep down, I won't and can't. I don't deserve to. So many others out there with an even more unfortunate fate are facing life with a smile. I can't.
Taking baby steps. Christian music brings me back to where he resides, letting me find a calm spot to hide from all the things happening in my life.
I needed Jesus @ | 8:09 PM
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Ok, this world is a very happy place. There are alot of joyful stuff. Everything is going smoothly. I am coping super well.
Those who attended zhen lao shi's lesson on tian cai meng might understand.
I needed Jesus @ | 9:50 PM
The actions unnoticed, the purpose unrealised. This is where misunderstanding spring from. It doesn't help matters if you continue to do it, cos sometimes, some people just won't get it. Its not their fault, everyone thinks different. Who are we to condemn others?
This world ain't easy, no one said it was. People from all walks of life, people with different personalities all coming together. Sometimes a harmless phrase, just may leave a mark on another person. You won't know what you've done to that person even.
Complicated world? Yeah, we made it complicated. Maturity? If everyone was matured, all these wouldn't have happened, this world would have world peace and life would be a amazingly smooth sailing one. Yet again, what then, is maturity?
I duno what all of that is about.
I needed Jesus @ | 9:09 PM
Why torture myself? Sometimes letting go might really be the better choice. Gonna focus on studies, gonna do something to put a smile on my parents face. Getting home late everyday just make them worried and angry at me, so why bother anymore?
Working to see my picture up at the screen the next year of today.
I needed Jesus @ | 10:12 PM
This post is dedicated to Jesus Christ!
The mixture of fear and anticipation when waiting for the release of results, the joy when I got it back. People told me, "But its expected wad". Yet, it is this same expectation, that made me so afraid. Afriad to disappoint.
Lord's grace has been more than sufficient, and by His mercy I scored an A1 for Chinese O levels and distinction for my oral. The moment of joy, of elation, was overwhelming. Thank you Lord, for being here with me throughout. Please continue to be by my side, be with me. I love you. And I need you. To carry on with tomorrow till I've finished walking down this path of life.
I needed Jesus @ | 8:28 PM
够了，我真的累了。
There's a limit to everything, even optimism.
Lord, you're the only thing I'm holding on to. I needed Jesus @ | 10:16 PM
Was reading my archives just now... From my first post to my recent posts, it seems like a different person. Indeed, its not only me, but almost everyone around me too. Life has dealt me quite a lot last year. Failures, successes, happiness, joy, anger, tears. They're all part and parcel of life.
From colourful posts with more singlish and simpler contents, my posts are more dull now. Maybe its the reality of life that has hit me - life is not so bright. Or maybe, its just me. No matter what, there'll always be regrets. Still, I would rather choose to believe in "It might be a little late to start now, but no matter what, its still a day earlier than starting tomorrow" Lets just hope I can walk the talk.. Ambiguous as life may be, I'm still willing to carry on. No one said it was ever going to be easy.
Starting of school wasn't as bad =) And orientation is over! Sry to SLs for not helping out at all throughout the whole of orientation...
Still haven't really found the motivation to work. Knowing and doing is two different things. I know what I SHOULD do. But I don't WANT to do it. And sometimes, I want to do it, but I can't find the strength to.
Here's hoping that 2010 will be a good year ahead and all the best to those getting O Level Results back on Monday!
Still that child in your arms... Leaving my life in your hands. I needed Jesus @ | 12:53 AM
