♥Huiwen

2010-10-16T22:39:00.003+08:00

Zi Yan.
Definitely the big sister in the family! She totally has the 'feel'! Caring, always ready to volunteer and a very loyal friend who's rare to come by. Despite her strict upbringings, she never seemed to be rebellious like I am and treat all those around her with definite respect. Since Secondary 1, she's always a joy to be around and her hearty laughter is super infectious. Her self-discipline is something that I can never ever achieve and she is actively contributing in any group work. Not to forget, her suanning skills have definitely improved after sitting next to me! ;D And she really put in effort in all that she does.

I believe you definitely can achieve your dreams as a fashion designer! Go for it! Have faith and confidence in yourself! Thank you for the support and encouragement that you've always given! I Love You! <333

2010-10-16T22:26:00.002+08:00

Crystal.
Dear dear seat partner. The long long days you have to endure with me isn't that easy, right? ;D A marvelous seat partner who's very serious in her work. Her compassion for the human race, especially those who are not as fortunate are easily seen once you know her. A person with opinions that are definitely beyond her age. Though she may seem cold on the outside but once you get to know her, you'll definitely be easily be attracted to her. Her personality with a hint of 'blurness' at times just makes people feel instantly at ease. She's always careful and sensitive to those around her to avoid hurting others. Definitely a great friend who'll listen patiently to your problems. She has her own unique working style and once she set her mind to it, she'll stick to her plans all the way. I don't recall the fury side of her (unless you mess up her hair) though she DOES have an evil side like Mr Hyde. Maybe, just maybe, after O Levels I'll mess up her hair for once and see if she kills me =) Or maybe I should do it before O Levels so that I don't have to take O Levels. She has a certain 'feel' that simply says, "Cool, calm and composed". Oh, and she's the only one who sent me the most smileys wearing sunglasses! ;D

Thank you for all your help during lessons and the joy you've added to my studies and more. Its great talking to you and even 'suaning' you! I Love You! <333

2010-10-16T22:03:00.003+08:00

I realise, I'm not one to express myself freely. I'm not one that can express myself in the right way. At the end of these 4 years in Xinmin, I have a lot that I want to say. But its just not ME to simply spell everything out. But I'll still give it a shot because these people mean a whole lot to me. Kelvin started this shout-out thing on his blog and it kinda inspired me to do the same.

THIS IS IN NO ORDER.

Dawn!
Muhahahhahahaha. Friend of 8 years. And I never knew she was this CRAZY. Remembered that we put exactly the same choice for CCA and the same department. Though we've never been Secondary School classmates, thanks to CCA and being next-door-neighbour-class, we still got quite close in Secondary 3. Dawn has always been a hard-worker who always gives it her all. She's got a BIG BIG heart and was never irritated by my never-ending questions. There's so much to learn from her indeed and I'm positive that she's influenced me to be a better person in many ways. She's also a great walker that never seems to tire out from all the walking. From anywhere to everywhere, she's been exploring streets and places. AND her sense of direction is still better than mine! ;D To think that we got erm...LOST in Novena. Hahaha. There's so much I want to thank her about, there's so much I want to say, but I just can't seem to get it into words. The endless shopping (especially in Orchard), the times where she would listen to me grumble about maths and chemistry and physics..., the times when she stayed back in school and studied with me, the times when we ran around the parade square, the times she always walks past my class to 'visit the washroom'(NOT countable!), the times we had to choose where to have lunch... The memories with Dawn is not easily forgettable and I am really very very thankful to have this chance to befriend her. She's definitely sensitive to those around her, never failing to notice if I'm down and can be as hyper as anything. If I didn't know her, I MIGHT have though that she was fierce but when you do, she's nowhere near that. She has a temper that is erm...10times better than mine and a caring heart coupled with a helping hand that she never failed to extend. Selflessness and warmth simply overflow from her. One flaw though. SHE IS NOT TICKLISH, unless when she's HIGH. Hehe

Dawn, its simply wonderful having such a fabulous friend that not only helped me in my studies but brightened up my school life tremendously. You PEBBLE! ;D You can definitely bring out the best in life so never ever give up! The journey is long and tiring but I'm always here to talk, go crazy and drive you crazy! Muhahahaha. Never ever forget that! I Love You! <333

2010-07-03T00:23:00.002+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY IS OVER! =( Shall post a long post since I feel like it (rare!)

Firstly, thank you to everyone who wished me happy birthday, be it via facebook, sms or in person. Thank you to my class who sang me the birthday song of a total of 5 times over yesterday and today. Thank you to Hui Feng, Dawn, Lydia for going to Kaleidoscope with me! =)) [I just used a...rhetorical device - repetition!]

Kaleidoscope was a great performance tonight. I spaced out during some parts of the melodies as I recalled a few incidents. My life. 16 years on Earth, packed with things. Mistakes, tears, joy, laughter and regrets were all the past. I can't change the past, but I can make my own future. Opportunities, choices, are the future.

Some thoughts during the performances were linked with life. Life is just like a performance. Music, lighting and the stage were merely external factors that enhances the performance. What was truly attractive was the fact that the performers did they best. Their serious expression was written all over their faces. The joy, the nervousness mostly showed. Yet, the rush of adrenaline that surged through them must have been hard to miss.

The whole performance also changes with perspective. The overall feeling is different when you take in the whole scene and when you simply focus on 1 person. With the whole scene, the cooperation matters. Every action you make are crucial to everyone else. Yet, when you simply focus on 1 person, the moves become clearer. With it though, so does the mistakes.

Who doesn't wish to do well in life? It all really depends on the amount of hardwork, effort and just a bit of luck. Life will always have its ups and downs. I will always be on this roller coaster ride. I will be tired along the way, lost, confused. I still am. Torn between choices, doubting my own decisions. One day, everything will be clear, one day, everything will reveal itself in due course. This, is the hope that I cling on to.

2010-06-17T20:22:00.002+08:00

Quote of the Day： "我的脑袋进水了" - Kayying

Hehe, went to Jurong East Swimming Complex today with Dawn and Kayying. Tried all the facilities today! =) Was smaller than what I remembered. That isn't a surprise though, I grew after all!

Super tired after swimming. Still, went to IMM to shop for a while... Its kinda far from Jurong East interchange.. Ohhh, I WON DAWN IN TAP TAP for the 1st time! Muhahahhaha. Achievement of the day! Hehe ;D

2010-06-16T16:38:00.000+08:00

Lord, only you know my heart's desire. This time though, I'm waiting for you.

2010-06-07T20:16:00.002+08:00

I love Jesus. No matter what, I choose to believe. To believe in my beliefs that I've held close to my heart for ever so long.

I'm gonna appreciate life's small things =) No use pondering over questions where I won't get my answers in the short term!

I just read "The Last Song". Its super super super nice. Seriously. I think I cried for over an hour (since the page when Ronnie knew about her father and his condition)... Even though the author (Nicholas Sparks) already dropped many hints previously, the way the emotions were portrayed and all were way too real. The reality of someone close leaving. What should we do after we know of our limited time left on Earth? Or rather, what CAN we do?

Nothing much I guess. It feels as though many things are often out of our hands, but I firmly believe that its definitely not out of God's hands. No matter how many times I go running to Him, He always welcome me with open arms. He always accept me for who I am. For who I wished I wasn't.

Here's a little moment I would like to share!

"Wake up! Its time for school."
*10 minutes later*
"Its ___ time now! You're going to be late for school!"
*Looks at the clock before jumping out of bed*
"Why didn't you wake me up ealier! T.T"
*rush around getting ready"

Yep, this happens almost every morning! Hahas, yet, looking back, this is what made my clean record of not being late for school. For the past 10 years, (almost) this is what have happened. And this is my early daily dose of Motherly Love.

2010-05-31T16:56:00.001+08:00

I'll try my best, to believe in this.

Life is meaningless only if we allow it to be. Each of us has the power to give life meaning, to make our time and our bodies and our words into instruments of love and hope.
- Tom Head

2010-05-30T21:26:00.003+08:00

The guy did not utter a single word. The silence was not an awkward one, in fact, it actually felt comfortable. He was more than a dream to her. He was what she had wished for, and more. Hazel wanted it to last forever. Yet, even forever has an end.

When she finally woke up, Hazel was reluctant to get out of bed. It was just going to be another 'usual' day. A day filled with loneliness and dread. Nonetheless, a hint of hope tugged at her. She didn't know what gave rise to that hope, but she couldn't help but wish with all her heart that today was finally going to be different.

2010-05-20T16:16:00.003+08:00

"Who are..." Hazel begun to question, though she was silenced before she could speak. He put his finger on her lips and quietened her. Warmth seemed to overflow from him. It was an unexplainable feeling. Just simply nice and warm.

As she looked into his eyes, she found herself drowning, and she wasn't trying to keep herself afloat. It was the first time, she found courage to stare into someone's eyes. It was the first time, she let someone stay in contact with her.

2010-05-19T20:41:00.002+08:00

Staring out into the clouded night sky, Hazel stepped into her own world. A world that belonged to her and her alone - a world where no one could penetrate. Its her place of refuge, her 'safety zone', her secret hideaway. All was as usual... till something happened.

A face emerged. It was supposed to be a place where only she and she alone existed, why? what? who? There was no answers; the questions merely lingered in the air. At once, Hazel was thrust into a world full of unknown; confusion took over. In the one serene place where she once found peace, it was only filled with fear from the unknown.

When she finally withdrew from her world, the sky had cleared and the moon casted soft moon beams onto Hazel. Hazel wrapped her arms around her legs and sat there, not knowing how to make sense of what had just happened. What actually happened anyway, she did not know. Slowly, she drifted off into a light sleep, where the face made its second appearance.

2010-05-16T23:03:00.003+08:00

Indeed. Lord speaks to everyone in different ways. And I found my answers to some questions. Its difficult, but I'll try. My cup did run dry. There was nothing left. Not a drip of wine. Yet that is when, You came in. Among all the mistakes and wrong decisions I made, at least I made a right choice - trusting You.

Lord, teach me how to love. Teach me and mould me to be more like You.

2010-05-11T12:54:00.002+08:00

CAN SOMEONE GIVE ME THE HOTLINE TO the institute of mental health? I have 2 crazy people here. They are laughing for no reason in my room. Super weird. Looking for weird definitions somemore. o.O

BELLS AND BALLS ARE CRAZY

2010-05-04T18:05:00.003+08:00

I love maths I love amaths I love maths I love amaths I love maths I love amaths I love DAWN!

DAWN IS OFFICIALLY MY FREE ONLINE MATHS TEACHER

2010-04-28T20:00:00.001+08:00

I used to be a much more cheerful girl, till I suddenly just hit a down point in my life. Just lost myself. From then on, the days were not as bright.

Why not though? I am still who I used to be. Undeniably, life has changed. And it will continue to change. But I will face life's challenges with the strength from Lord Jesus. He will forever be my fortress and savior.

I am uncertain of myself, but I will test deep waters with Him! =)

Random thoughts.

2010-04-24T16:52:00.003+08:00

Love, Fame, Wealth. Life revolves around all these. Just turn on your radio, how many songs that are being played is with regards to any of the 3 themes? What makes life a fulfilling one? One where the person has a wonderful lovelife, a wealthy life or an authoritative life?

I wonder.

Ideas, beliefs - what are these then? When and how do we judge whether one's ideas and beliefs are wrong? Is it in the case of the minority following the decision of the majority?

I wonder.

Character, a dangerous word often associated with stubborness.

I wonder.

Trust, faith - a case of the heart over the mind.

Mind VS Heart, each has their own advantages and disadvantages. So how do you know when to listen to which? And what happens when both refuses to speak?

I wonder.

A bleeding heart - a heart that bleeds for no reason, what's the cure for it?

2010-04-20T22:55:00.002+08:00

In The Blink Of An Eye lyrics

You put me here for a reason
You have a mission for me
You knew my name and
You called it
Long before I learned to breathe

Sometimes I feel disappointed
By the way I spend my time
How can I further Your kingdom
When I'm so wrapped up in mine

In a Blink of an eye that is when
I'll be closer to You than I've ever been
Time will fly, but until then
I'll embrace every moment I'm given
There's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eye

And though I'm living a good life
Can my life be something great?
I have to answer the question
Before it's too late

Cause in a Blink of an eye that is when
I'll be closer to You than I've ever been
Time will fly, but until then
I'll embrace every moment I'm given
There's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eye

If I give the very best of me
That becomes my legacy
So tell me what am I waiting for?
What am I waiting for?

In a Blink of an eye that is when
I'll be closer to You than I've ever been
Time will fly, but until then
I'll embrace every moment I'm given

In a Blink of an eye that is when
I'll be closer to You than I've ever been
Time will fly, but until then
I'll embrace every moment I'm given
There's a reason I'm alive for a blink of an eye

2010-04-14T22:03:00.002+08:00

Thanksgiving time! Stepped down from cca today. Its a mixture of emotions, just like last Saturday. The end of something is always the beginning of another. I understand, I know. I learn, I grow.

Thank you to all my CCA mates! You all were there for me throughout the whole thing. The memories, the times we had, the photographs we took. All these, will remain as a beautiful chapter in my life. I love you guys, really. Without all of you, cca would have been completely different.

Thank you to all of my juniors (dear photographers!)! All of you were wonderful. Thank you for the notes that you all wrote! I'm sorry for all the last minute duties and I'm very very grateful for those who were still willing to take up these duties!

Thank you to Mr Tang, Mr Wong and Mdm Pok. You all were the reason why I was able to grow and learnt so many new things. I've gained valuable exposures and experiences in all these things and I'm indeed grateful for all these.

Thank you to all my classmates and friends, who tried to cheer me up these few days. I'll be ok soon, I promise =)

Thank you Lord, for staying by my side 24/7. Hug me close and draw me near.

2010-04-14T21:56:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I really feel like fast forwarding my life. I wonder how God actually views me. How am I in a third party's point of view? Almost 16 years, and if I were to have the honour to see Him face to face, I'll have nothing to say. Saddening, but its the truth. Maybe its time to wake up and start serving him.

Lord, you've asked me before, if I was willing. Seriously, I'm not sure. I gave you my word though, and I will try if it is your will. Noone will be able to take place in my heart Lord. You are my everything now. 因为在人群中的我，再你的眼里，从未消失过。

2010-04-11T20:11:00.004+08:00

I was stupid during Primary school. Seriously. Now I understand better what's going on. I don't think that came from a 11 years old.

Oh well, thats just something for myself so all you readers out there can just ignore it =)

THE YES WE CAN PROJECT IS OVER! I won't have to wash cans again! And I'll definitely have more free time to do my homework and all. But I got to say, a big part of me still can't let go of that. After all the hours that everyone put in, the bonds formed and all are undeniable. The resutls of our hard work - we ourselves could feel it.

Great job to everyone! Seriously, this whole project was simply awesome. And I really gotta take my hat off to some people. Do rest well! Especially those who stayed overnight. I thought taking down the cans were ok, that I won't be sad as long as the memories stayed. As long as the lessons learnt were not forgotten. I was wrong.

After all these hard work, the cans project had a part in my heart. And it feels empty now that its over. There's a lot of things I would like to say, many thank yous. 1st thank you will be to Mr Tang. His support and prescene made things possible. Thank you to the organising committee too, you guys made it! Thank you to the working crew too, for choosing to take part in this project! Thank you to those who replied my sms-es, you all made a difference in my day. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

2010-04-06T22:44:00.001+08:00

迷失的心，又要如何把她找回来？在毫无目标的漫游下去，到底该怎么办才好。

2010-04-06T22:34:00.001+08:00

Those who really cares, cares. Those who don't, don't.

2010-03-28T23:56:00.002+08:00

Life, I'm confused. No matter what, I believe that I will always stay firm to my belief. Jesus has touched and changed my life so much so that it is impossible to take me away from Him. I may be losing faith in all other things, but never Him.

Good Friday is coming soon. Its good to have such an event to commerate Him. But do we really have to have such a day to remember Him? Shouldn't we always keep in mind of Jesus bearing the cost of our sins and walking up the cross every single day?

Lord, I'm unworthy of you.

Its been a year... I believe that you are watching us from somewhere, watching everything unfold. Hope that you're a free soul and happy wherever you are. Take care, alright?

2010-03-25T19:06:00.003+08:00

My own world? I wonder. Life, we make such a big fuss out of it. Yet when we came, we came empty handed. And when we leave, we'll be leaving empty handed, so why are we doing so much? Yeah, why do I strive for better results? Does it matter at the end? Yes. It matters. No matter how many times my parents say results doesn't matter as long as I do my best, I know it still matters to them.

After all, how many parents wouldn't want to be proud of their own child? I gotta buck up and start studying. The disappointment in their voice is unmistakable and I don't fancy it. 8 more months to O levels.

2010-03-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

Wishing for someone to truly understand me and walk me through all these. Lord, who am I?

2010-03-21T01:43:00.004+08:00

Going to sleep in 4 minutes time! Hehe.

Firstly, welcome back! For all those who went to Kota Tinggi ;D I wanna see your photos! Oh well, only 1 day left of the whole holidays, with ALL of my holiday homework undone (as usual!)
The outing was fun, the highlight of the whole holidays! =))

I realise that I owe Mr Lee too much homework and I am super S-L-O-W when it comes to doing maths! I took 5hrs to do 13C. Almost died. Tyvm to my dear aunt who patiently (I mean patiently, since you're putting me and maths together) coached me and helped me to solve the questions while I stole peeks at the TV! Hehe.

Still unable to clear the homework that I owe Mr Lee after all. Lesson learnt? DO NOT OWE MATHS HOMEWORK! ok, I think I'm a bit high now, since its kinda late and all... XD Shall go sleep now! Goodnight to all those late night sleepers!
Thoughts that will never be spoken.
*Hey, I don't usually sleep so late!

2010-03-13T23:37:00.003+08:00

Hihi! Time sure flies, in many many blinks of an eyelid, I haven't updated my blog for over a month! >< Sorry to those who actually bothers coming to my blog to read XD

Oh well, updates updates! What have I been doing in these days that flew by... Hmmm, first up, the Haiti project! Am glad to be involved in something so meaningful =) The baking of cookies was nice too! And it showed that I could bake! Muhahha, ok, maybe I wasn't the one baking since I can't remember how much of anything to add! Hehe. It really showed how much the teachers cared though, be it whether they supported the Haiti victims or us.

After that... Media Camp! The planning stage wasn't that good, and to plan a camp within 2 months is really quite a rush job. Thanks to the effort of many, programme comm., logistics comm., admin comm... They did pull together a very good camp! Hopefully the campers enjoyed it! That 3 days 2 nights were indeed memorable and personally, I would like to thank Dawn for accompanying me (and running with me all over the place) throughout the camp to tie up some loose ends here and there!

Then the following Friday had SHINE! the musical. Was amazed at what the actors and crew put up. The storyline was interesting and injected with humour here and there! Really enjoyed myself, with many many precious values learnt =) I think I'm a bad host though, Vanessa came over to my house to sleepover for the night so we went to Macs before that at around 12 midnight.

After I finished my burger I on-ed my computer and fell asleep while Vanessa went to facebook I think. Hehe, then I just slept all the way till Vanessa jabbed me at 7am and I surprisingly woke up and open the door for her. My mother say that she didn't see how Vanessa looked like at all! hahahaha

Fell asleep again after that and woke up at 8.20am. Intended to wake up much earlier than that but... Oh well! Hurriedly washed up, ate breakfast and left house since I didn't know how to get to the examination venue. Thankfully I made the right choice by taking the mrt to city hall where there're signs (never been so thankful to see them) leading me to the venue!

The theory exam was ok but I took longer than anticipated and only had sufficient time to check through half the paper... No matter what, it was a great load off my back and I can happily wave goodbye to theory for the time being! Many thanks to those who wished me luck for this exam too!

Walked out feeling relieved and went to Plaza Singapura where I walked around for a while before heading home. After which I fell asleep till 7.45pm zzz. Woke up and watched "Family Honor" Its like super sweet now, since all of them ended up with who they really liked! My mum was like asking if any Singaporean guy would be as sweet towards his wife as those Korean guys in the show! ;D

Ok, long long updates of my busy life! XD

Oh oh, and Happy 16 Birthday to Hui Feng! Hope its not too late! =))

P.S. Welcome, March Holidays!

2010-02-01T23:33:00.002+08:00

Wondering and wondering.

Lord, I submit myself to You.

2010-01-31T23:57:00.002+08:00

Witnessed a quarrel between 2 young boys around... Primary 3? 4? just a few days ago. The fight simply started with the 1 of the guys playing the nitendo DS that belonged to the other guy without asking for permission. After which, one of them got angry, pushed the other guy's bicycle and walked off. Seeing this, an adult followed the boy out as he just kept on walking. To where? I have no idea.

Really makes me wonder. Primary school. It seems such a long way back then. But hey, its not. Its only... 5 years ago? Things haven't changed that much, it seems. They would probably make up and be friends again in a few days' time. Who knows? They might even have 'patched up' even as I am typing this.

Noone can force you to do what you don't want to. Noone will. Each and everyone of us have the freedom to make that choice. And each and everyone of us have to take up responsibility for that choice. I have chosen, to just follow the Lord. He has plans for me. I believe.

Very thankful for my religion (I know I've said this many times). I can imagine how I am like without God. A totally opposite me. A temper many times worse. If it wasn't for his love, I would be a hot-headed rebellious teenager. I do feel like rebelling at times. The stubborness and unwillingness to change. Yet, He is the only one who can change that.

When you think that noone understands, you'll be surprised to find out that He does. He loves you and me. No matter how you are, no matter who you are.

Lord, I wanna come before you smiling, not crying.

2010-01-28T21:14:00.001+08:00

Its really nice to see my CCA mates responding enthu-ly to my sms! Just that simple few smses can really make my day

2010-01-26T21:15:00.000+08:00

How to smile? Press the = key and hold shift while pressing 0.

2010-01-25T20:09:00.002+08:00

Do I look like a murderer o.O Cos the sec 1s said I looked like 1! hahahaha. Hmmmm, maybe that's one aspect to consider XD

4th week of lessons already... Time is still zooming past. Sometimes, I really wonder what I'm doing, watching life go past like that. But at other times, all I can ask is, what else can I do? Every step requires energy.

Really, sometimes its really not good to get yourself involved into too many things. This's where you apply "ignorance is bliss". Walking down this path of life, with patches of darkness. Yet, what is this compared to so many out there? I see the victims of the Haiti earthquake struggling so hard for their lives. Yet, the blessed me is yearning to give up.

Give up - this 2 words is indeed very alluring. No matter what though, I still know that deep deep down, I won't and can't. I don't deserve to. So many others out there with an even more unfortunate fate are facing life with a smile. I can't.

Taking baby steps. Christian music brings me back to where he resides, letting me find a calm spot to hide from all the things happening in my life.

2010-01-21T21:50:00.002+08:00

Ok, this world is a very happy place. There are alot of joyful stuff. Everything is going smoothly. I am coping super well.

Those who attended zhen lao shi's lesson on tian cai meng might understand.

2010-01-21T21:09:00.002+08:00

The actions unnoticed, the purpose unrealised. This is where misunderstanding spring from. It doesn't help matters if you continue to do it, cos sometimes, some people just won't get it. Its not their fault, everyone thinks different. Who are we to condemn others?

This world ain't easy, no one said it was. People from all walks of life, people with different personalities all coming together. Sometimes a harmless phrase, just may leave a mark on another person. You won't know what you've done to that person even.

Complicated world? Yeah, we made it complicated. Maturity? If everyone was matured, all these wouldn't have happened, this world would have world peace and life would be a amazingly smooth sailing one. Yet again, what then, is maturity?

I duno what all of that is about.

2010-01-11T22:12:00.004+08:00

Why torture myself? Sometimes letting go might really be the better choice. Gonna focus on studies, gonna do something to put a smile on my parents face. Getting home late everyday just make them worried and angry at me, so why bother anymore?

Working to see my picture up at the screen the next year of today.

2010-01-11T20:28:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to Jesus Christ!

The mixture of fear and anticipation when waiting for the release of results, the joy when I got it back. People told me, "But its expected wad". Yet, it is this same expectation, that made me so afraid. Afriad to disappoint.

Lord's grace has been more than sufficient, and by His mercy I scored an A1 for Chinese O levels and distinction for my oral. The moment of joy, of elation, was overwhelming. Thank you Lord, for being here with me throughout. Please continue to be by my side, be with me. I love you. And I need you. To carry on with tomorrow till I've finished walking down this path of life.

2010-01-10T22:16:00.002+08:00

够了，我真的累了。

There's a limit to everything, even optimism.

Lord, you're the only thing I'm holding on to.

2010-01-10T00:53:00.003+08:00

Was reading my archives just now... From my first post to my recent posts, it seems like a different person. Indeed, its not only me, but almost everyone around me too. Life has dealt me quite a lot last year. Failures, successes, happiness, joy, anger, tears. They're all part and parcel of life.

From colourful posts with more singlish and simpler contents, my posts are more dull now. Maybe its the reality of life that has hit me - life is not so bright. Or maybe, its just me. No matter what, there'll always be regrets. Still, I would rather choose to believe in "It might be a little late to start now, but no matter what, its still a day earlier than starting tomorrow" Lets just hope I can walk the talk.. Ambiguous as life may be, I'm still willing to carry on. No one said it was ever going to be easy.

Starting of school wasn't as bad =) And orientation is over! Sry to SLs for not helping out at all throughout the whole of orientation...

Still haven't really found the motivation to work. Knowing and doing is two different things. I know what I SHOULD do. But I don't WANT to do it. And sometimes, I want to do it, but I can't find the strength to.

Here's hoping that 2010 will be a good year ahead and all the best to those getting O Level Results back on Monday!

Still that child in your arms... Leaving my life in your hands.

2009-12-26T23:13:00.001+08:00

Life will always have problems, difficulties and obstacles. The thing is, never give up and strive on. You can definitely get through.

2009-12-25T23:47:00.004+08:00

Identitiy Crisis? Been asking around recently, trying to find something to define myself. Who am I? That's the question I wanted to find the answer to. Realised how little I actually knew about myself. How little I understood myself.

Wanna thank all those who kindly answered my random questions XD To say the truth, I'm still searching for the 'real' me. Knowing or not, I realised that I started being defensive since the beginning of this year. Defensive of myself. Why? I don't know. Maybe its just that I was afraid, afraid to get hurt, afraid of the truth.

Its not easy to change, especially when I'm so used to it that I do it sub-consciously. I've built up defences and walls. Things that I think would keep me from being hurt. Running away was one of them. I avoided as many things as I could. Its true, running/avoidance don't solve anything. In the end, I still have to face everything.

Thinking with my heart is not easy, not after my brain got so used to being in automated mode. Gonna break out of the 'politically correct' answers. =)
Tear away everything and behind all these, its just a simple 15 year old girl who is afraid to step out into the world, a 15 year old girl with alot of uncertainties.

2009-12-25T01:00:00.004+08:00

Went down to church at around 1900++ from the SL party... Left without having dinner so I bought bread near my church. Yet, the Lord has already prepared a feast for me. Christmas Eve's dinner thus changed from bread to a delicious meal of mash potatoes, curry chicken, beef, prawns, satays and other dishes. All I can say is, Lord's grace is more than sufficient and He will lead my way.

This song reminded me of something that I so often forgot.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLE8EY0gMX4

We Are The Reason - Avalon (Joy)

As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find

But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died

To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means

On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

He is my reason to live

Written by David Meece
(c) 1980 Word Music / ASCAP

2009-12-23T01:22:00.003+08:00

Ok, so I shall post about Media Leadership Camp here! =DD

Went to Media camp after SL intensive camp was dismissed so was kinda tired. Thanks to Xiu Wei and Dawn for buying me my lunch! ;D Went back to bunk and they did a bag search. After which we gathered in the asthetics room and did introduction, name droppers, puzzle (teamwork) and perceptives. My group was fun! We zi-highed there =D Hehe. I think it was kinda due to lack of sleep where I'll either be very high or very 'seh' XD

But at least our group's words were logically crap! (Kinda...? Hehe) The mystery case got me a bit blur I think. Hahas, but tyvm to Irdianty for being there! The second day was spent at East Coast park (morning) where we all either got burnt or sunburnt! The difference lies in that you either become chao da (like me) or as red as a cooked lobster/prawn ;D I think our team did a great job! Esp Bernard and Edel who stayed and built for the longest!

After which we had lunch and had to make our way back to school by ourselves. Almost everyone slpt on the bus ride besides yu hui and si wei who were zi-highing there. Hahas. Then arrived back in school and spent a further 1h? 2h? or so looking for Mr Tang! In the end he was in the recycling room! ...

The station games were *thumbs up* I liked them! =D Though I think it will be the first and last time I touch worms of ANY kind. So 'lucky' of me! Btw the seniors have a very... interesting way of waking people up! *winks at girls in the same bunk as me* I apologise for being quiet at times cos I was a little tired =P I think the appreciation thing is nice! Hehe.

Media Camp made me think a lot too, though about different stuff. Thks to Mr Tang for talking to us too. Media Club made me learn and grow alot too. I don't know if I appear to be an outspoken leader, cause I think I'm always pretty quiet during SL camps or something... Haven't really found myself yet, and I still don't understand myself many a times. I don't know what kind of leadership style I have, or if I have any at all. Hopefully, I'll figure out more of that in the near future...

I came to realise that I act differently with different groups of people, which made me wonder who is the 'real' me. Maybe, just maybe, there's no 'real' me. I'm made up of the different sides of me. Xiu Wei, Dawn, Kayying would have seen a different side to me when they went to HK's Ocean park with me! (Esp Xiu Wei! =D) Maybe, this is all part of growing up. Maybe I would never really understand myself. But no matter what, I am still me. Imperfect, hot-tempered as I may be.

What I do know is, I'm really thankful for the different group of people in my life who supported me and saw me through the downs in my life. Be it in church, CCA, SLB, class, I have great friends surrounding me and encouraging me. Really wanted to saw a big thank you to everyone of you!

I lost 2kg! Rawrs!

Lord, I'm sorry for not keeping to my promise of going on a mission trip this year. I will go next year. Really really will. Thank you for casting light in my life when I most needed it yet again. I will lie in your arms, till forever ends. I love you.

2009-12-23T00:50:00.002+08:00

This hols is like flying away or something! Only left with around 1 - 2 weeks! Omg. Totally haven't touched my holidays homework. *Faints

Just back from camp on Monday =) *Warning - this is gonna be a super long post!*

Allow me to start off with the SL intensive camp! (Wait, I go get my notebook) Ok, back ;D Truth be told, I was dreading the camp(s) and hesitating if I should go. Very glad that I did! Never did like the feelings of camp, not sure why though. Had pre-camp symptoms (hehe, some of you should know this! XD). Started packing the day before at like 2200 - 0000. Then woke up at 0500 to continue packing...

I was kinda thinking about quite a lot of stuff before I went for the camp. Its was a low point in my life where I just sort of lost the steering wheel in my life. When things all started to get out of control and I didn't feel as though I have the strength to carry on or to make them right. Simply put it, I was tired. At the very least, I thought by going to camp would take my mind off all the thinking.

And the irony of life is, the camp was focused on reflections. The activities and lectures, they made me ponder, brought me to a new depth and opened my eyes. Life, wasn't as shallow as I thought. I don't know when, but the answers that I gave were "politically correct answers" that came from my head, not my heart. Somehow, somewhere, I seemed to have kept my heart under lock and made decisions with the more logical side of me.

I realised that I no longer knew myself. The person staring back at me in the mirror was noone but a stranger. A stranger that I hated. The last sing-a-long session I had with the SLs, I suddenly realised how precious it was. I wanted so badly to hold that feeling, to remember those faces. I haven't fully understood the purpose I was in SLB, and I'm still thinking about it. But I really am glad that I passed probation and became part of this family. Thank you to all who accepted me into the board and made me feel like I actually belonged.

4 Days 3 Nights weren't as long as I thought it would be. Sincerely hoping that these feelings, this bond, be it newly formed or strengthened, will last long. No matter what though, I still got to know more SLs better (esp my group members! It was really enjoyable with you all =] )

Wanna thank JW, exco, and all others who shared that night. At least now I know that I'm not alone :) It also answered some questions I had for life. For myself. Life ain't easy, but I'll get by, definitely. I won't forget that night and all that's shared. It also made me understood, how much we influence people around us, be it consciously or sub-consciously.

A big big thank you to all the seniors and camp comm too! It was really a wonderful job. Creative, thought-provoking and fun packed in just 1 camp!

Think this post is getting a bit lengthy so I shall post media camp in another post! =D

2009-12-13T00:17:00.001+08:00

Quoted from Peter Penguin: "I think none of us have the right to say someone else has changed :D
cuzzzzzz we're all changing! so does it make a diff? I mean like if we bothered to state everyone who changes, we'd be listing every person in our level that we know."

2009-12-12T22:20:00.002+08:00

Thank you Lord, pls carry out the promise.

Its all I'm living for

2009-12-09T14:20:00.002+08:00

Maybe I should wash my hands off all other matters and concentrate on my studies before I screw up my O levels.

2009-12-06T19:08:00.001+08:00

Give me a reason to go on.

2009-12-04T17:57:00.003+08:00

Maybe I overestimated myself.

2009-11-29T23:42:00.003+08:00

Hong Kong... Suddenly feels so familiar. 6 days of memories, which I'll treasure. The greatest difference between a tour and a bi-cultural is the homestay and the hosts. Being able to be with your friends on a bi-cultural trip is great, but the most memorable gain was the time you spend with a new found friend.

It does bring me out of my comfort zone, and awkwardness are almost unavoidable during homestay. Staying with someone you just known on the day itself isn't so simple. Hosting someone you just known on the day itself isn't so simple too. The initial feelings of being a strager faded quickly though, especially through the warm welcome and hospitability by the host family.

The 5 nights that I've spent there, every night was just as warm under the blanket. A cheery greeting in the morning, the route to STMC, the bus rides back. All these sort of became a routine within days.

6 days past quickly. Too quickly. Everything has an end. Bidding farewell was inevitable too. Its my second bi-cultural, but the same feeling. The good thing is, we're likely to see our buddies next year still =) Pls come!

Lessons at STMC (3E) was fun ;D The lessons were pretty interactive :] Missing my buddy still...

2009-11-22T22:55:00.005+08:00

3rd day of Hong Kong - shopping day! Didn't really buy much, but walked the streets where there are alot of wares. Morning woke up late since it was buddy activities... Nothing much happened besides that I ate 10 over jiao zi! Yummy!

Oh well, gonna go to bed again. Going to the Ocean Park tomorrow. Hope that I have fun and dun get a heart attack from the rides or fly out! Zzz... Nites to all! *It got a bit warmer and it'll get warmer still! =)

Missing my family. 3Days & 3 Nights to go...

2009-11-21T22:47:00.002+08:00

2nd Day in Hong Kong! Getting used to the cold (at least a little, I think) =) Hehe. Quite nice to feel natural air-con FOC and everywhere you go! Been to quite a few places today. Had a great time there though a bit blur blur since I can't really recall all the places very well XD

Gonna go out with my host tomorrow! Not sure where we're going yet though... Singapore and Hong Kong IS alike. In terms of technology and all, its almost on par! One difference is ours is MRT, theirs is MTR? =X

My buddy is like super sweet and considerate. Think she's quite matured for her age =) She has a super cute sister too! (Knows how to sing Heads and Shoulders Knees and Toes) Can't go with the youth fellowship to watch 2012 tomorrow but oh well... Still, have fun to those who are going!

Check back for more updates tomorrow, folks! I'll remember the story, Mr Lee! XD

2009-11-20T21:24:00.002+08:00

Am in Hong Kong now! Supposed to be blogging for the school and for Mdm Liew to view but I'm not sure how to go in... Or how to blog at the site! So decided to blog here first!

The plane ride was fun =) Not too long too. After which we alighted and went to Shatin Methodist school. After all the warm welcome and the cold cold wind, here I am at my Host's house!

The family is really nice ;D Realised that Singapore and Hong Kong are somewhat similar. The public transport (mrt, double-decked bus) and all are alike. Haven't really seen Hong Kong yet so I can't exactly state the difference as of yet besides the scenic view that Singapore will never have (since Singapore's most 'scenic view' is... Bukit Timah hill? XD)

Going to go around Hong Kong tomorrow to take videos and all, think its gonna be an eye opener for me indeed! Gonna chat with buddy later since I'm sleeping in the same room as her :]

Thats all for now! =)

2009-11-15T22:28:00.003+08:00

Today was fun! Seriously. Went out with Dawn, Kayying, Xiu Wei & Hardi after Church today and went gift shopping. After that joined Mr Tang and Kelvin for dinner =) Me and Dawn got lost today! Ahhhhhhh~ lol... MPH bookstore was nice ;D Hehe. Ok, this was what we actually did:

Hardi, Kayying & Xiu Wei went down escalator to MRT. Me and Dawn ran up to the 2nd floor. Stayed in MPH bookstore (or whatever the name was), then went toilet (the stalls were pink and don't have signs!). After that we went outside and walked to duno what Novena Medical Centre. We were laughing there like siao liddat and the security guard was staring at us XD After that we decided to stop playing so went back to LJS :)

Dawn was like super hot after that la! I think her body temperature is like 38 degree Celcius. Even after dinner still haven't cool down. Dawn always so HOT de! Go Hong Kong cold then I hug her can liao! She can become my hot water bottle! =)

Many thanks to Mr Tang for dinner tonight! And how can a King Kong/Panda just sit down and cry when we get lost! Cannot liddat de! XD

Btw, if I really like a guy, I wun sms him and tell him I like him. Seriously.

I'll give you a reply, just give me a few more days...

2009-11-15T00:12:00.004+08:00

Reviving my blog... Super lazy to post so yeah... Oh well, bridging's finally over! =) Like yipeeee! Had flag day today with Vivian and Yu Hui ;D Went to Chinatown there. Think its quite fun after all! Bubbletea never tasted quite so nice as it did after flag day!

Going to Hong Kong in 5 days time! Super excited over it! *Jumps up and down* Looking forward to it =) Chatted with my buddy over msn le! Its gonna be 6 days there only though. Haizz.

Btw, gratz to all seniors & friends who took O levels! Its finally over! Great job! =]

Thinking back about the past year and realised that I've screwed up a lot of stuff. This year was really eventful, and I think I've changed a lot from last year. Positive or negative change? I don't know. Dun wanna think of next year.

2009-10-28T22:36:00.002+08:00

Results for SA2 are all out... Can say that I'm quite alright with them? (Besides for amaths and maths!) Wasn't any surprise to me though, after slacking for 1 whole year =X Teehee. Am extremely thankful that I've managed to pass other subjects though, especially physics!

Somehow seeing the Secondary 4s having O levels now make O levels seem so near... Having chinese O level paper in 13 days or so too. Gotta start revising very soon! Should start working on Secondary 3 maths and amaths too to catch up. Slacking's effects are the worst when it comes to maths!

Dun wanna disappoint teachers and parents next year, gonna strive for all As! Maybe I should lock my computer up or something... Hmmmm.

Suddenly feel like revising... After exams somemore. zzz, what an irony of life. Hahas. Done quite a good job for languauges (I think) this time round! Praise be to the Lord! Languages come easily for me since I grew up in a Chinese service Church and joined Youth services a few years back. The Lord has blessed me in many areas. Its time to put the brain He gave me to good use!

Frankly speaking I'm quite worried about Chinese O level! Its the "O level" thing that makes me worried I think. Its like, 4 years of studies all put to test! T.T Gonna have to pray hard for an A1! All the best to fellow friends taking Chinese O levels with me too! =)

To all Seniors or friends taking O levels now: All the best! You can do it de! Its the last dash to the finishing line for your secondary school days! Jia yous! ;D

2009-10-22T01:10:00.002+08:00

Quick update! Things are starting to pick up after EOYs again... At least they take my mind off the results which is just a couple of days away... Praying hard that I won't fail (besides amaths...). Currently having CCA photoshoot. Great job to fellow photographers who took the shots today! =D

Gonna have symposium meeting tomorrow along with CCA photoshoot. At least its only going to take half a day ;D Hehes. Super tired these few days since I've been sleeping late thanks to this nice book. B@S is in 2 days time. Can't believe its been almost 1 year since I've joined B@S . Still have to edit my script! Rawrs. Must jys! We made it through 1 year together! No matter the results though, its really a good experience with all of you! Never gonna forget how nuts we were together. At the very least, it was a great chance to get to know you all better =)

Think I better get to sleep now before someone wakes up or I oversleep tomorrow! =P

2009-10-17T13:51:00.003+08:00

Exams are over! Still have Physics and Biology SPA + Chinese O levels though... Well, yesterday was an extremely lucky day. Was ruuning across the parade square, which wasn't unusual, and piak! I became a supergirl for 5 seconds or so... Grazed both knees and both arms =X

That's why I'm currently at home staring at the computer... Watched till the latest episode for K.O.3anguo - episode 34... Now duno what to do... zzz. Supposed to be at Chinese Symposium Meeting but mum dun wanna let me go out now...

Still thankful though, although I hurt both legs, I still can walk (run also can I think =) ), even though I hurt both hands still can write and type! Plus I didn't hurt my face! hahas. Shall go try out the facebook game Ming En recommended! =)

2009-10-09T16:44:00.002+08:00

Realised I haven't posted for a long long time so here I am! Hahas. In the midst of EOYs now. Thinking back, time really flew. 10 months just gone like that, when we were just talking about not wanting to split and go to different classes...

Oh well, EOYs are bad! Already had 10 papers and have 9 more to go. At least cleared quite a lot of paper 2s... Didn't do well though, esp for maths. Gave up hope for it le... Didn't really work hard this year, but regrets are too late.

Gonna start studying hard instead of slacking, so pls nag at me to go study next year! I shall befriend dear maths and amaths and biology and physics and chemistry and geography and english and chinese and history and social studies next year! Hopefully they'll start liking me too... Hehe

Still, had tons of fun this year! Many many thanks to those who motivated and encouraged me to study too! Esp Dawn and Vanessa! =) Can't believe only have around 1 more year left in Xinmin. Not gonna want to leave next year ;( Oh well, shall enjoy and treasure it while I can!

Found out that my posts kinda messy XD At least this post is considered long! =) Hehe. All the best to all those still having examinations! Jia yous! ;D Remember, the examinations wun kill, the results does!

2009-09-22T22:09:00.002+08:00

EOYs are in less than 2 weeks. Post exams are around 1month away. Should really start revising and studying for EOYs. Didn't exactly score well during this year. Time really flew this year. It was only the beginning of the year, adjusting to the fast pace of secondary 3 life and all... Yet now its already september.

Day after day, week after week. Everything was like a blur. Sometime I got caught up in the rush of life. Others, I was a mere bystander, watching my life rush by me. Wondering how things would turn up in the future. Yet I know, as long as I walk with Jesus, I have nothing to fear.

All the best to everyone who's having their EOYs! Muz Jy! Lets all score well together! =)

Today marks the second day =)

2009-09-18T22:34:00.002+08:00

Super long time since I've last posted! =X Thanks to all for still keeping my tagboard alive! =)

Ultra busy these days, what with EOY coming right up. Still yet to start revising. (Better not be so next year) Results still sucks but... CCA's standing down next week, yet feeling that there's loads for me to do. Mistakes made, lessons learnt. Hopefully, things will get better.

I am weak, but you are strong. Through you, I am able to continue on and pull through. Never ever let me go. I need you.

2009-08-30T00:11:00.002+08:00

Its the weekend again! And time is flying by as usual. Can't believe EOY is so near around the corner - and here I am still, slacking. Just watched "Fated to love you" online again... Spent quite a lot of time doing that =X

Well, lets look on the bright side! Monday is going to be teacher day celebration and there's no school on Tuesday because its teacher day! Then next Saturday day will bring about a 1 week holidays - though still have to go back to school... Well, after the holidays... lets NOT think about it! hehe

Think I'm going to sleep soon. Disappointed that wasn't able to go buy gifts with mdc ppl! =( But at least I spent some time with my mother... something I've not done for quite some time, haiz. Looking forward to 2moro with crystal and going to church after that!

2009-08-22T21:31:00.002+08:00

Had B@S today =) Please let our idea work! Rawrs! During which I went back to class and attempted to retrieve my storybook that I left in class -.- In the end my hand was too short and I gave up the attempt. Haiz...

Then then then went to talk with Mr Chew. After which went and have lunch with him + dawn + sherry. Mr Chew did something in his car during the journey! Hint Hint!

After that went popular and went home, changed and went to church. So tiredzzz! Think I shall stop blogging now. Do NOT want to have keyboard keys' marks on my face! ;D

2009-08-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

Whoo~ Am posting now thanks to Yu Hui! For those of you all experiencing problems with blogger, try pressing ctrl + F5! It worked for me! =DD

Been quite tired recently... Loads of tests and not enough time! Esp for me to sleep! Rawrs! Physics teacher juz went up to me and asked me how I thought the last test was... I went like "ok ok lah" Then she was like, "ok, nvm, I tomorrow then tell you" which means I confrim die already! T.T Last term physics still passed, now dunnoe what happened... Dun want to go to school tomorrow le!

Hehe, dawn, running at night not bad lah. =P Though no star tonight... Dun even have the national flag (then we could have seen 5 more stars!). Only 1 star... Hahas. Bet you're sleeping now... Gonna go sleep soon too! =)

P.S. Shall post marnia barrage's photos up when I feel like it since I can post photos already! =)

2009-08-12T14:48:00.001+08:00

Super long time never post! Couldn't upload these photos which is like... long overdue! Hahas.

Bringing to you... the models for xxx toothpaste brand! Let thier bright smiles dazzle you! Whoo!

Disclaimer: There will be no 'modeling fees' ;D

Model 1... Vivian!

Model 2... Hardi!

Model 3... Kelvin!

2009-07-27T18:59:00.000+08:00

Posting again! Last saturday was inter-class games! The futsal(however you spell it) was fun! All the teams took it seriously and it was exciting ;D The guys in my class looked too 'si wen' to be playing rough but hey, they totally transformed into another person! Watching them play together as a team with the rest of the 303 '09 people cheering was a heart-warming sight - it makes me really feel that we are a class, after 7 months. =D 4 people was sick today though, from my class D: Yu hui and Vivian didn't come to school to! =((

A big thank you here to all my photographers for enduring through the 4 and 1/2 hours of duty! Great job =D

Missing the house of kitten... Haiz. Didn't seem that long ago when I wan't as busy and could go home with you all like almost daily. Missing the times. Gotta start work. Stressed about English lessons as usual =(

2009-07-17T21:49:00.002+08:00

Sorry to all for not replying your tags and thanks for tagging!

Long long time since I've updated... Hehe. Facebook is complicated. Seriously. But its very nice for playing games! Yeah! Though I shouldn't be playing games and not doing homework... T.T Oh, anyone knows how to create a polling system?

O level Chinese oral was pretty ok. Conversation was about sports. Talked about playing basketball! Listening comprehension will be this wednesday... Hope I can do well! The rest of the school should be thankful I think. Since lessons are ending slightly earlier thanks to that.

And its racial harmony day celebration tomorrow. Hmmm. Wonder who will turn up in what costume... hahas =D

2009-07-02T17:51:00.002+08:00

I've officially turned 15 today! Hahas. This year's birthday was GREAT. Many thanks to all of you! Special thanks to Zai Cheng, Syafiqah and Crystal who smsed at 12am today! Also special thanks to Zi Yan, Ming En, Sherry, House of Kitten (Vanessa, Huifeng, Afiqah), Ivy, CCA friends (Vivian, Yuhui, Zenyee, Kelvin, Zaicheng, Casper, Glen), Wenxi for the presents! 1st birthday ever when I've gotten so many presents from my friends! So honoured! =D

Many thanks to those who've wished me a happy birthday and given me a card too! Especially to my 203 '08 friends and 303 '09 classmates for singing me a birthday song! This year's birthday was the most 热闹 one so far! Hahas.

Had tons of fun today still! Thank you all so much! Love ya! *Mucks!*

2009-06-27T23:30:00.002+08:00

Whee~ Went over to Vanessa's house on Thursday and helped Hui Feng translate her Chinese tuition homework. During which we had tissue packet fight. (My aim wasn't that bad!) Hahas. Threw tissue packets at each other. It turned out to be pretty fun at that!

Met up with Ying Ting, Ivy and Crystal on Friday to do English ATT. Still not done yet though, T.T After which we went to the library to discuss. "Science and technology" isn't very nice to talk about... And we're supposed to give a speech! How to make it interesting?

After English ATT went to Crystal's house to do Biology presentation. Did the base of the powerpoint and did Emaths there (excluding circle properties, which I have absolutely no idea)! Should go over more often. Then maybe I'll have cleared more homework... =X Was nice talking to Crystal. Hahas =)

Friday night continued Biology powerpoint till 11 plus go eat dinner. After which started reading a book. So nice so I only stopped at 1.45am. Decided to sleep since Sat morning need to wake up early for B@S . Right eye was prickling me whenever I closed my eyes though and couldn't get to sleep.

Thus, I decided to continue reading my book! Till... 2.45am. Decided that its getting too late so I tried sleeping again. Still couldn't sleep due to the pain so went to put eye lotion. Was doing so till around 3++am. Was so tired that even eye was still a bit prickling I simply fell asleep after that. Felt as though I've just started sleeping when I heard my alarm ringing. As usual, I snoozed till I saw the time.

Supposed to wake up at 6.15am but woke up at 6.45am instead. (Snooze is powerful! Hahas) Got out of bed and went off to do B@S . Turned out didn't do that much after all. Haiz... Then went compass before heading to Ming En's house to do Biology. Her photos are clearer than mine T.T A bit Zi High there due to only 3 and 1/2 h sleep. Sry to Yock Chuan! Hahas. I'm always nuts when I dun have enough sleep, I realised. =P

Then went home before going out to eat dinner with parents to celebrate my birthday early. Yummy! Came home and was supposed to do Holidays Homework since I've hardly touched it and school's starting in like... 2 days. Ended up doing nothing much again though XD

That's all for what I've been doing this 3 days! Realised its pretty long! Hahas =D

2009-06-25T10:00:00.003+08:00

Talked to Hui Feng over the phone for 3 hours. She said it was an ACHIEVEMENT. Maybe it was, no idea. We both fell asleep for a couple of seconds throughout the conversation cause we talked from around... 11pm - 2pm? Hahas. Was super tired and the bed became so comfy!

And we did wake up when the other person went "Hello? You there?" Quite fun. Hols are really coming to an end! Today's Thursday already! Nooooooooo~ *sniff* Dun wanna bid my hols farewell yet. Haiz.

All homework undone besides English comprehension (without summary) and 9 questions of emaths. So dead. Left with physics, english, history, biology, emaths and amaths. So smart of me to leave everything to the last day again...

7 more days to my birthday! hint hint*

2009-06-22T09:17:00.002+08:00

Didn't exactly celebrated Father's Day... =X Instead was playing basketball with church friends! Hahas. Its definitely not a good idea to play barefooted cause the ground is kinda hot. Feets still aching from wadeva I got for playing barefooted.

Think I played with the kids more than the adults... Skill sucks XD Just randomly standing there roaming the court. Reaction time a bit slow also =P At least after all it was fun! And the kids could aim better than me lar... Though they are like still Primary 4 or so... I better buck up!

Finally started with my maths. Did around... 5 questions? Hey, at least it was a START. Hahas. Should get started on the rest too... Still waiting for MOE to approve the 1 week extension! What's taking them so long, I wonder...

2009-06-19T18:16:00.002+08:00

Changed blogskin a while back cos my previous blogskin's photos were both gone ._.

Yep yep, only a week left to the holidays! (where did the 1st 3 weeks go to???) Should start working on my homework now! Promised myself to but... haiz.

Zzz wonder how I'll ever get used to school life again... no more late mornings... Please approve the 1 week extended holidays! We dun wanna get H1N1, do we? (and of course, we wun mind the extra holidays! XD)

My birthday's coming soon too! Yipee~ Going to be... 15 years old then... Hmm, time sure does fly! 15 years just like that? Hahas. First off though, is Father's Day! What present should I get for my dad? Hmm...

2009-06-16T22:01:00.002+08:00

Back from SLB camp! Its a whole new experience for me as a camp comm. member. It's really really fun! Only thing was, no wet activities (waste water) and coporal punishment issued by MOE or something and we couldn't carry them out. Made the camp more of a bonding camp and much lesser on the discipline side.

There's so much things that went on - happy, sad, stressed, enjoyable. Overall just hope that everyone DID get to know each other better and learnt something from the camp. Slept for 12h for the whole of the 4 day 3 nights! After which went home and promptly slept straight for 13h 45 min. Hahas.

To SLB June Camp Camp Comm : Great job everyone! It was great working with you all despite all the hiccups along the way! Enjoy the rest of the holidays!

1 thing left a deep impression with me. Something the seniors shared. I've realised that at this point in time, alot of us are undergoing a lot of things. Responsibilities to carry out, targets to fulfil and much more. So much so that at some point in time, we simply want to let go of everything and give up.

Families, friends, schoolwork, CCA - all these commitments just keep piling. Be it bad time management, stress, or simply increasing workload, you seem to be unable to breathe, unable to enjoy or relax.

1 thing for sure though, we are not alone. We are all in this and we are all going through the same things. We all feel stressed, we all feel tired. Its been alot and you feel as if life's been dealing you alot. Stand firm, stand together and we'll get through everything together.

My world's been in a bit of a mess too. All the unsettled stuff, I duno where to start and I totally dun feel like starting. However, the longer I drag, the worse the things get. Without Lord Jesus, I wouldn't know what state I'll be in now.

Nonetheless, Lord Jesus never fails to be by my side everytime. Recently I've been feeling this urge and need for Him. I know that I need Him, for everything. To rely on Him and to let him lead my heart, mind and soul. The knowledge that everything will be in control under him - that's reassuring. When I can't take it anymore, He takes everything away from me. Thats how great he is.

I'll stand by the Lord, my savoiur, Jesus Christ and I'll pull through. I'll love Him with all my heart, my soul and my mind.

2009-06-08T23:40:00.004+08:00

Tired. Came back from Family Camp yesterday. Super fun. Wished I could have stayed longer... Haiz. Had to travel for 10h (to and fro) altogether. The ride was bumpy back lah, and couldn't find a comfy position but still rested well.

Was great there. Loads of interesting things. Hahas. Love the nights, so fun! Felt that the camp was too short. Or maybe time just flies when you're having fun.

Already looking forward to the next trip already =P Realised that Singapore's education is really good. It assures you easy access to JC and Poly and University after that. Many subsidies and opportunities which promises a bright future.

Biology field trip tomorrow! Think its gonna be fun. Yay! ^.^

P.S. Sorry for all the late tag replies and thanks to all who tagged! =D

Some things are really unexpected. Underneath that cover, noone knows.

2009-05-30T21:36:00.002+08:00

50th post! =D Got back report book yesterday and I didn't let my dad see yet. Dropped by 79 positions (level) and like 20 positions (class) and that's excluding the scholoars cause many of them failed English which caused them to fail overall and be ranked from the back. This is how bad it can get. Very very bad, so zc, zy and kc, I have no idea why u said I did well...

Had super lot of fun at wild wild wet today. Wasn't as tanned as I tot I was gonna be (Thank God! Praises to Him!) and Hui Feng made me go on the pepsi ride. Wanted to back out till the last moment but still went. Had to lug this super heavy float up which we did with much difficulty. The guy up there was nice and asked if we were ready. Hui Feng went like yes which I was like no.

Oh well, down we went, screaming the whole way. Super funny lah, especially Hui Feng was like, "I wun scream" beforehand. Hahas. In the end after screaming ended up laughing like some nutcases. Lugged the float down a few steps and 2 guys came up and helped us to take lah, so kind of them.

So it ended up that wild wild wet had kinda little slides and all but was still fun. Spent half the time queuing but at least had Hui Feng to talk to. So glad she persuaded her dad to let her go! =D hahas

2009-05-28T19:01:00.002+08:00

Hey, thanks to all for tagging! Been kinda out of touch recently, sry for that... Thanks for all the concerns which brought smiles to my day! =)

2moro's the end of school semester 1... Time really flies, doesn't it? Its gonna be great! Wanna go out with so many people to have a great time. Sadly, 2moro have B@S phase 2 interim meeting. And the clients dun wanna give us any infomation! So kinda stuck now... Haizzz.

Gotta go file stuff, byes!

2009-05-20T17:46:00.004+08:00

48th post, almost 50. Seemed like I've been posting quite a lot so far...

Today's mood was totally ruined by the results. Managed to fail 2 subjects thus far out of... 6 subjects. Those that passed wasn't too well too. Worst results ever and its MID YEARS. How great. Chemistry did really badly and got me my 1st F9 ever. Couldn't believe it lah. Seriously, I knew I never really got chemistry but F9? That's quite shocking.

Shall not mention any of the other subjects since I DID NOT do well for ANY of them and I think this year's parents-teachers meeting MY parents are gonna have to make a trip down. Just great. Haiz. Think I just gonna give my parents the report book or something. Really duno how I can let my parents sign something like that...

More papers coming up tomorrow. God bless. Hopefully, tomorrow will be much better than today. Many thanks to Ming En for listening to my ranting about chemistry and to Crystal for trying to cheer me up and getting Ming En and my maths results. =)

2009-05-19T22:20:00.001+08:00

The papers will be returned to us tomorrow! =D Not all but at least some ^.^ Excited now, not sure about how I'll feel tomorrow! CIP hours... How am I supposed to track? T.T

This post is gonna be super short cos posted as Zai Cheng and Zenyee said that I dun update often enough... Hahas. All the best to all for your results! =)

2009-05-12T19:19:00.002+08:00

Mid-Year Examinations are officially over! Yeah! =D

Went out with 203 '08 to celebrate the end of exams though only 18 people went... =( Still, the movie was great! Its finally time to do what I'm best at - Slack! CCA's resuming though... And the heritage competition... Ahhhh, shall not think about that first =) shall enjoy the sweet joy of having fun and not doing work! ;D

2009-05-11T23:07:00.002+08:00

Ok, bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad habit of mine. I was given 3 days to study and instead I slacked for 2 and a half days and tried to cram everything into my brain in 1 night. Or less than 1 night. Sighs. When will I ever get to kick this habit!

Absolutely no motivation whatsoever when it comes to studies. Thinking back, all those passes and As were God's grace and miracles. =X managed to survive so many papers thanks to Lord Jesus. =D

Thankfully, its the last 2 papers tomorrow and it HAD to be be 2 SCIENCE papers. T.T best thing is, I've only started! Whoo! So dead.

2009-05-10T21:54:00.002+08:00

post post post post post. Ok, nearing the end of exams! Whoo! Bad thing is, lost my motivation to study half-way. Thanks to Vanessa for making me study for Bio =) haven't touch my physics and chemistry which is alot but... that's just me. Last minute stress worker who regrets every single exam thinking that I've not given my all.

Seriously thankfully that God is always helping me XD Without Lord Jesus, there'll be no me. These few mornings there was lightning and thunder raging on. My mum said that when Jesus come for the 2nd time, there will be lightning from the east to the west.

That got me thinking and fearing. I realised I'm too worldly. All these things that I value now. Studies and all, is all just gonna disappear like that. I dun wan that. Seriously. I think I'm taking everything for granted. Being able to live, its something out of my control, out of my reach. Who knows what'll happen tomorrow?

So people out there! I love every single one of you and I wanna see you up in heaven 1 day, in the presence of Lord Jesus where there is no tears, no sadness =D Those who are not christian yet, come join me in this big family who'll live together in heaven with God someday, kay? Dun live your life aimlessly! =) Jesus love you!

2009-04-23T16:04:00.003+08:00

Here to post! Started coughing like on Tuesday or something, then like abit of sore throat. Since its ME, I decided to ignore it... Till last night told mum I coughing then she say wan go see doctor. Doctor was closed already at that time so juz bought cough medicine. Was feeling super tired so decided to go to bed and SLEEP early at 10.30pm.

Woke up in the middle of the night like 4 times or something. When mother woke me up to go to school then realised I was running a fever =X Mother gave me panadol after which I went back to sleep. So didn't go to school today and thank you all for your concern! =) thanks to ming en and crystal for helping me to collect worksheets too! Went to the doctor at 11pm but wasn't really running a fever anymore. Added on to that, I couldn't swallow pills (small throat?XD) so he gave me the liquid medication which is not as strong...

Ate something and then took the medication before going to bed and watching tv! After like half an hour I fell asleep all the way till 3.45pm. Woke up and ate something again b4 I took medication! Decided could not sleep already since have like 4 tests and 1 chemistry mindmap to do... So here I am blogging before I start on my chemistry mindmap! Hehe. Took temperature and it showed 38.1degree celcius. Why am I still running a fever!!! I HAVE to get back to school tomorrow! Mid-yrs so close somemore.

People, must take care of yourself! Dun be like me fall sick hor. Wondering the photos for the reflection competition how already. Rawrs. Ok, shall start on my chemistry mindmap now! And its 4.15pm! Dismissal time for my classmates who went to school! ;D hahas

Realised that I've slept for about 15hours... Nice long sleep that I've been needing =)

2009-04-21T19:33:00.002+08:00

This is taken by me! B@S group members hard at work!

Taken by me too! =) Discussing...

Pictures by Ying Ting. Say cheese!

This is by Ying Ting too! She ran away with the school's D40x to take photos...

If you want, talk and solve things. Things wun change like this. I'm tired of playing guessing games. Why dun u juz come and tell me straight?

2009-04-05T20:16:00.002+08:00

Homecoming day's over! Photo booth didn't generate as much profit as we though it would, and felt bad at making so many people wait for so long plus keep on rushing the crew (esp the editors) cos people have been waiting for super long! Whole thing was pretty blur and initially there was no customer. Thought that it would have been a failure. Hoped that she is proud of us for homecoming even though she's not here with us...

Apologies for not being organised =X Will try to do better planning for any other these kinds of events! And yay to photo seniors for coming back! =) Sooo long since I've seen you 2 ;D Didn't get a chance to help out at my class stall and wear class tee :( Didn't see much of the stalls too, though the haunted house was fun fun fun! Besides Fly being so heavy all of a sudden. And for her screaming into my ear.

Currently in denial of any homework... Am super sick of homework, homework and yet more homework. Its forever there! Mid-years are approaching too and I've yet started on revision T.T Looking on the bright side, at least this Friday is Good Friday which means no school! Of course Good Friday holds more meaning than that for me.

Here's thank you to all who helped out for the photobooth and the customers for your support and help! =)

2009-04-03T20:39:00.004+08:00

Busy busy! Homecoming's tomorrow. Photobooth! Muz all come and support! Hehe. Excited about it but its bound to be tiring, very much so. Life is tiring after all, though I'll get my strength from Lord Jesus. He is in control. He knows everything and he's always there when I need him.

Tomorrow's gonna be busy but I sure do hope everyone will enjoy themselves! Sry for last min planning and all... Not excatly that clear. Have a feeling that everything's gonna turn out alright though! Jys everyone!

Good Friday's next week. Jesus, keep me going, juz as you've kept going. You've won the battle against death and all others. You're my one and only God, whom I shall rely on. All my needs, my wants, my everything, I hand it to you. I hand my life to you.

2009-03-27T21:57:00.006+08:00

Mdm Liew made the announcement. The whole school was quiet. I didn't feel anything, not at that time. I was simply numb. Simply thinking that its still not true. Chinese lessons for once was quiet. Seriously quiet. After that was Amaths retest. Wrong timing. Didn't study and didn't care. At least I did attempt the questions after thinking about handing up a blank paper.

B@S took her off my mind for a while. However, our efforts wasn't rewarded and we didn't win. At least it wasn't elimination round. Went back to photo cca for a while. Everyone seemed much better, though the damage can still be seen. Life... suddenly took a turn. For the worse.

2moro's the last time I'm ever going to see her. Claudia, I'll miss you, a whole lot. You've left a hole in my heart, but time'll heal it. How long? I duno. Dun wanna think about 2moro. Its a pity you've left so young. =( Hope that your 14 years of life was fufilling and meaningful. You'll be in our hearts forever.

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2009-03-26T21:18:00.003+08:00

In memory of her...

This is too sudden, far too sudden. Its something I've never thought would happen. Life seems so fragile. Questions? There was. I just didn't know if I really wanted to know. I just couldn't bring myself to accept the fact that she's gone, just like that. She walked out of our lives and left a gaping hole there.
It made me realise how precious our lives are. I didn't anticipate something like this. It is a huge shock to all of us. Stunned, shocked, dumbfounded. Words didn't work. Tears simply came. Everything was in a blur. Everyone was in pain. Those words... so often heard. These scence, so often seen. Yet, for the first time, I felt the pain brought along by death.
I'll remember you, I promise. No matter where you are, I hope that you're in heaven and at peace. The times we spent together wasn't long. But it wun be forgotten.
This made me realise that I should treasure everyone around me more. Every single one. Those unspoken words will never be spoken anymore. The chance has passed, all too fast. Only thing to do is to accept and live with it. Its tough, I know, but do stay strong. Everyone, do take care of yourselves. Rest more. Time will eventually ease the pain.

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2009-03-22T22:54:00.002+08:00

ok, just realised I am afraid of cockroaches after all. Was bathing just now when 1 flew in from nowhere. Gave me a shock la... In the end hurriedly like dressed and then went out. Brother took Baygon and sprayed the cockroach. Mum took it out using plastic bag.
short and random post! gonna get back to my chinese ATT compo or else I can forget about sleeping...

2009-03-19T18:51:00.004+08:00

Super tired now but decided to blog before I sleep. Super long post ahead!

Yesterday went to Hui Feng's house for a sleepover. Decided to watch "He's Just Not That Into You". The only place showing this movie was Cineleisure Orchard and we hurried down to catch the 7.20pm show, only to find that all tickets were sold out when we reached.

Hui Feng suggested we watch "Push" instead as "Paul Blart Mall Cop" was all sold out too. Made it a little ahead of time for "Push". It turned out to be a thriller which was very nice indeed. Glad to have enjoyed it =)

After which we went walking around at 9.30pm. Walked to MacDonalds and talked quite a while over the phone with Vanessa before buying a McChicken each and left for Hui Feng's house. Was settling the photoshoot thing too while walking to the mrt.

Reached Hui Feng's house at around.. 11plus plus pm. After which talked with Zai Cheng and Kelvin the phone till 1.15am. Phone went from 80+% to 18%. Ate the McChicken and then went to the poolside to chat with Hui Feng. Was pretty relaxing. If only everyday could be like that... Sighs.

Was around 2 plus am when we went back to Hui Feng's house and we tried to do some homework. Fly found articles for my English Journal while I attempted a Maths question which I gave up after thinking about it for 3 minutes or so. Realised that my brain totally do NOT function well when I'm sleepy!

At around 3.30am went to cook Maggie Mee with Fly cos we felt like eating sth. It was super spicy but we finished up 1 packet pretty quickly between us. After which we cooked another 2 packet. It was downed with cold water to cool down my taste buds...

Decided to catch some sleep at long last after we finished eating. By that time it was already 5am. Was so tired that I feel asleep like after lying on the bed for 5 minutes? Hui Feng whacked me with the bolster though. That woke me up alright. So I hit her with the cow and woke HER up. Both of us were asleep within minutes though.

Offed my phone and didn't set alarm to save battery. Turned out that Fly pressed on the stop button instead of the snooze button and we both hurried to get ready, so we woke up at 7.20am instead of 7am. Supposed to morning call all 3 of them at 7am. Hurriedly on my phone and morning called Zen Yee and Kelvin. Zai Cheng was already up by then. (my apologies!) Arrived in school 20 minutes past 8am.

Kelvin was the 1st to be waiting outside the com lab. Hui Feng had to run 1 round around the parade square for being late. (opps!) She was pretty tired and yawned like 5 times during the journey to school. Zai Cheng and Zen Yee arrived soon after that then we went to the coffee shop to eat breakfast.

That pretty sums up the slpover and a bit of the next morning. This post's already too long so I'll juz stop here!

2009-03-18T10:33:00.008+08:00

Liked this picture the best(besides Glen being blocked...). If you wan to see the other photos, go to the others' blog! Did photoshoot in the morning yesterday. Many thanks to Hui Feng, Vincent, Yu Ting and Jia Hui for being the models and to Vivian for being a great help! Thought up of more themes and all, hopefully will be able to take the photos in time and not delay the deadline again...

Went to MacDonalds for lunch, yum yum. After which spent quite some time deciding where to go. Saw a dead bird underneath a tree. Was quite poor thing. In the end decided to go to Vivocity Skypark to play! Yu Hui wanted to go home and do her art which still had quite a lot, but still went with us in the end. (Hopefully she was able to finish her art!)

Reached Vivo at 4 plus? Was still quite sunny. Found a shady area to leave our things and down we went into the water to play! Initially agreed that we should NOT get wet, though it didn't happen of course XD

splashing in the water, I was able to forget everything... Which is why I enjoyed it so much I guess, to have nothing on my mind and do as I wish! Glad that someone didn't come along... Have the feeling that it wouldn't be as fun if the person did come. I dun wanna hurt you, but I can't bring myself to accept you. Pls, give up.

Back to splashing in the water. Time really flies when we have fun. It was soon 5.15pm and we dried off till 6.30pm. Talked, took photos and played the staring game. Went home at 6.30pm. Mum wasn't at home so she didn't see me all wet =) Tired when I reached home so I didn't do much for the whole night... Still slacking and relunctant to touch any homework...

P.S. Get well soon and enjoy your trip, Casper!

Lord, I need you. Life without you means nothing.

2009-03-13T22:09:00.002+08:00

March holidays are here! Time for me to catch up and organise myself. Hereby apologising to my teachers (esp Mr Lee!), B@S mates, my english ATT group, Ming En and my CCA for being ever so busy and neglecting alot of things.

I WILL try to sort and get things organise during this very short hols... Happy Birthday, Hui Feng! To B@S mates: Do rest more! If not we'll rename and call ourselves the Pandas instead... =P

2009-03-10T21:21:00.003+08:00

Hiya! blog blog blog blog. As expected, most (almost all) banner photos got rejected... Haiz haiz. CCA is still as fun as ever though! But I could see that most of us were really tired and badly need sleep and to clear our homework, revision, tests etc etc.
Anyway, keep going everyone! The 1 week march holidays are arriving in a couple of days' time! Really looking forward to using the time to relax, unwind, recharge, clear and organise my things, clear my homework, go out with friends, and SLEEP!

2009-03-09T01:36:00.003+08:00

Back from Media Camp! It was fun~ Although the activities were somewhat the same, the fact that the TLs were so high made it fun. =) Did get closer to other TLs I think, and some of my group members. Wasn't really bonded with the rest of my group members too, sadly.
Media Camp may be tiring but I can see that the camp comm. put in effort to achieve it too. The amazing race at Pasir ris beach was pretty amazing too. Started raining and was under the shelter with group 2 and 4. Started raining with lightning flashing and thunder roaring. Hid under the shelter for 1h? The place got struck by lightning I think and the electricity was cut off...
Media camp may just be a little too short for me. Was having so much fun though I have to admit I was quite tired. Many thanks to Yu Hui and the other TLs for hypering with me! ^.^
Came home, bathed and was so tired that I slept all the way till 12.30am. Thank goodness I woke up if not I'll be dead for not doing English... Going to unpack and head for bed again! Bye~

2009-03-02T21:21:00.002+08:00

A big thank you to Yu Hui, Vivian, Zai Cheng, Zen Yee and Casper for staying back today to help out with the banner taking... SPECIAL thanks to Yu Hui and Vivian who did most of the work! I do enjoy going out with House of Kitten and my CCA mates! It feels nice that they are all willing to stay back... As in like we are at least like bonded or something.
Thank you to Mr Tang too for extending the dateline... Tests tests and more tests coming up. Owing a fair amount of maths homework yet again. Haiz haiz. Thank God the maths test is postponed to Wednesday and the English Written Proposal is only due on 11 March! yay~

2009-02-22T19:17:00.003+08:00

Here I am again! Its Sunday... Sorta like the particles during the process of melting - half happy cause I'm not in school and all; half sianz cos tomorrow has school! Ok... now too much chemistry too? hahas.

Ok, juz realised that everyone's not coping that well with school work so I'm not the minority who isn't doing that great. Kind of a relief? hahas. So I juz wanna say that "Jia yous everyone! We can do it ultimately! Dun stress yourself too much =D" Ok... Maybe a little hyper, I duno? Juz came back from Termite's house. Was fun though Affo wasn't there. Tee hee.

Think I still have maths and biology and OH YA, ENGLISH JOURNAL! Nearly forgot. Phew. I think I should start doing it before I forget!

2009-02-21T14:30:00.003+08:00

Think I've had too much physics... Was thinking about speed, acceleration, gravity, terminal velocity and air resistance when I was watching this anime and the guy was fighting so like dropping from great height to the ground...

Anyways, kinda settled English ATT just now. (I hope) And there's no Business at school this week! Heheheheeee. Still too lazy to touch my homework. Shall see how. =X

2009-02-18T21:27:00.002+08:00

Hey ya! Feeling great today =D Yesterday was juz too tired so went to sleep at 10pm! Slept all the way till morning though I set 3 alarms and was SUPPOSED to wake up, hahas. Today's chem test was... Didn't answer 2 question so lost 6 marks already.
Chinese debate didn't turn out THAT bad. I dun think I will be on the main team though. There's so many other people who QUALIFY for it more. My chinese cannot make it sia. Today went hall listened to the O level thingy. Suddenly O levels feel so near can... especially since taking Chinese this year.
Next year's gonna be worse. 9 subjects. oh well, what's done cannot be undone! Shall juz work hard! Everyone, jiayous!

2009-02-16T19:57:00.009+08:00

Today wasn't excatly a good day. It started off ok, with me picking number 6 for the english ATT presentation. Had a emergency drill for total defence day and sat in the field for like an hour under the hot sun. It was a free suana session! Wonder if I lost weight...

After that was feeling so sticky and tired. SS didn't really enter my brain. Thankfully most of the things can be found inside the textbook, meaning that I can revise myself. After that went to help Ming En with her BIO stuff. Went out with her to buy things and was kinda hyper.

Went to meet up with the chinese teachers about the chinese debate thingy. Ain't gonna elaborate about this. To simply put it, I might be chosen. Almost cried on the spot. Suddenly everything was like crashing down on me. Something that I never thought would happen. Chinese isn't excatly my strong subject and the extra committement was just a little too much. Especially a committement which I didn't even think of taking up before. I think Mr Tang saw me red-eyed and went easy on me.

What is left to do is pray and do my best. There's nothing to it now but leave it to God. Nowadays too many things are far beyond my means, though I strongly believe that through God, I WILL pull through, no matter what. Anyway, the teacher may be right, who knows. I gotta give it a shot no matter what. Gonna start on homework and research now.

P.S. Vivian, muz take care of yourself!
P.S.S I apologise to Ryan and Yevtte due to bad mood just now and anyone else whom saw me in my bad mood.
P.S.S.S For those of you who are concerned, I'm thank you. However, I am ok now. Guess I my brain juz couldn't process it on the spot. Things are better after I calmed down and give it some thought. I guess I'm just like that. =D

Lord, I need you. NEED.

2009-02-13T22:30:00.004+08:00

Its only 10.30pm but it feels like 11.30pm already... Today was quite fun, not just a dull dull day. Hahas. Tomorrow's Valentine's Day so Happy Valentine to all! I already have a date tomorrow - a date with Amaths. T.T
Aunt promised to help me clear all my A maths exercises so I'll be bound to spend loads of time on it. On the bright side, at least I'll stop bluring in ALL the maths lessons and start to comprehen...
There's gonna be B@S tomorrow! Pretty happy about that, esp since I LOVE the grp I'm in! ^.^ Its finally friday after 1 whole week... Time doesn't really seems to be enough nowadays. Every night my bed looks sooooo tempting while the big pile of homework sure don't appeal to me as much...
To those who were concerned about me being stressed, thanks for your concern! I'm still doing fine though so its pretty much ok. Thankfully there's so many people willing to help me! Special thanks to all who helped me! Really appreciate it. =D

Hereby wishing everyone,

"Happy Valentine Day!"

I dunno if I can do it by my means, but I'm sure that I can do it through Christ Jesus. Jesus, will you be my valentine?

2009-02-09T22:51:00.003+08:00

Updateeeeee~ Today had investigure which was fun =D It was my first investigure! After that was like hurrying so that I will not be late for english lesson, only to find that Ms Dora Lee never come today! So discussed ATT and talked.
Went back home, bathed and went to sleep cos super tired... Mother woke me up after that, went out to Tampines Mall Seoul Garden to eat/celebrate brother's birthday. Superrr full now. He got a new phone for his birthday from my dad and I still owe him a birthday present!!! Reached home at around 10.15pm? Then feeling sleepy again so gonna go sleep. Dun care homework le =X
Nowadays is like... homework homework homework so busyzzzz can. Especially with the english ATT deadline coming up for oral presentation... And I owe Mr Lee like 6 exercises? Hahas. And THANK GOD I didn't fail my maths test! Was pretty sure I would cos I duno how to do like half the questions but I still passed! THANK YOU, LORD!

2009-02-01T15:47:00.002+08:00

Just realised that I haven't update my blog in like half a month... Been pretty busy nowadays. Tests coming up, Atts' deadlines, and tons of homework which I haven't started. Last Friday left CCA early for Business @ school. It sounded fun though SCGS is like so much more prepared than we are.
Though it might be tiring/stressful, I dun regret joining it at this point of time. I think my group members are nice and those who will really work. And the best thing is that I know all of them so I think I'll have a great time and fun working on this project.
Gonna start on the Chem ATT soon... Have no idea what it is talking about and dun really care about Titan. It may be of great interest to scientists but not to me...
Oh ya, a little about the chinese debate camp for last saturday. It wasn't as fun as I expected and there's gonna be a chinese debate competition next sunday during the camp. Basically went there and listened to 2 lectures with some discussions. There was like loads of China students with marvellous Chinese and it felt as though I was in the wrong place. The lecturers said a whole load of chim stuff which my brain wasn't able to fully comprehend. A english debate camp might have been better with my chinese standard =X