Fear is rarely a pleasant feeling. It sets your heart thumping, your palm sweating and your head throbbing at times. It makes you tensed, poised for the next movement and often more sensitive than usual. Yet, I do seem to suffer from certain unexplained fears.
I've always had a phobia for heights. I dislike places that are above ground without full cover/protection and would often cringe should I ever be in a position that is so. Perhaps this is attributed to a fall when I was still a toddler, or just an inborn fear, but till date, I've yet to overcome this fear though the extent of fear did diminish over the years (Thankfully). Still, I can't say that I'm a fan of roller coasters which never fails to dip suddenly after climbing to a certain height.
Another unexplained fear is my fear of lightning and thunder which just suddenly surfaced amidst my growing years. At times, I'm not very affected. At other times, all I want to do is to cuddle up under my blanket and tune it all out. I dislike the unexpected flash of the lightning and roar of the thunder. To me, it spoils a nice rainy day.
Perhaps the underlying cause of these 2 fears relate to the fear of death? Deep down, I may be afraid of dying in such painful ways... There's no way to find out though, I guess? And the issue of either facing my fears and trying to overcome them as compared to running away from them... I do hope that 1 day I would be able to conquer my fear of heights for it limits me in trying certain activities like rock climbing (I'm alright with climbing up but I can't stand the coming down process) and such. Till the day that I succeed!