Our perspectives are often altered as we go through different trials and experiences in life. For me, university changed my view of the world once again. The first week of university life was basically a cultural shock and made me realized what an introvert (Some would say "nerd" would be a more suitable word here) I was. As the days passed, I realized the values and principles of our society. But still, I can't seem to find the balance within myself. 

The external environment may change, but I believe that if one can make peace with himself, he'll definitely be much happier and live more meaningful and fulfilling days. Still, try as I might, I have yet to succeed in that. I'm influenced by my environment and others' judgement, which often only results in self-torment till I seek refuge in my Lord. 

I need passion in my life, something that I desire and crave badly so that I'll fight for it. I need courage, to dream dreams and to chase after them. I need to learn how to love, not in my way, but in the way that my loved ones perceive. I need courage, to stand tall and proud without feeling inferior in any sense. I need to feel secured and at ease with who I am and not wish that I was someone else rather than who I am. I need to start now.