This hols is like flying away or something! Only left with around 1 - 2 weeks! Omg. Totally haven't touched my holidays homework. *Faints

Just back from camp on Monday =) *Warning - this is gonna be a super long post!*

Allow me to start off with the SL intensive camp! (Wait, I go get my notebook) Ok, back ;D Truth be told, I was dreading the camp(s) and hesitating if I should go. Very glad that I did! Never did like the feelings of camp, not sure why though. Had pre-camp symptoms (hehe, some of you should know this! XD). Started packing the day before at like 2200 - 0000. Then woke up at 0500 to continue packing...

I was kinda thinking about quite a lot of stuff before I went for the camp. Its was a low point in my life where I just sort of lost the steering wheel in my life. When things all started to get out of control and I didn't feel as though I have the strength to carry on or to make them right. Simply put it, I was tired. At the very least, I thought by going to camp would take my mind off all the thinking.

And the irony of life is, the camp was focused on reflections. The activities and lectures, they made me ponder, brought me to a new depth and opened my eyes. Life, wasn't as shallow as I thought. I don't know when, but the answers that I gave were "politically correct answers" that came from my head, not my heart. Somehow, somewhere, I seemed to have kept my heart under lock and made decisions with the more logical side of me.

I realised that I no longer knew myself. The person staring back at me in the mirror was noone but a stranger. A stranger that I hated. The last sing-a-long session I had with the SLs, I suddenly realised how precious it was. I wanted so badly to hold that feeling, to remember those faces. I haven't fully understood the purpose I was in SLB, and I'm still thinking about it. But I really am glad that I passed probation and became part of this family. Thank you to all who accepted me into the board and made me feel like I actually belonged.

4 Days 3 Nights weren't as long as I thought it would be. Sincerely hoping that these feelings, this bond, be it newly formed or strengthened, will last long. No matter what though, I still got to know more SLs better (esp my group members! It was really enjoyable with you all =] )

Wanna thank JW, exco, and all others who shared that night. At least now I know that I'm not alone :) It also answered some questions I had for life. For myself. Life ain't easy, but I'll get by, definitely. I won't forget that night and all that's shared. It also made me understood, how much we influence people around us, be it consciously or sub-consciously.

A big big thank you to all the seniors and camp comm too! It was really a wonderful job. Creative, thought-provoking and fun packed in just 1 camp!

Think this post is getting a bit lengthy so I shall post media camp in another post! =D